Hello again, it's been a while hasn't it. I was in two minds about making this post. Should I just continuing blogging without acknowledging that I've been away for over a month? I thought not. So I just thought I'd make a little update, tell you what's been going on and why I've been so absent.
So the big thing that happened to me recently is that I moved back to university. I'm now in a lovely student house with a bunch of my friends and I'm really loving it. Even though I'm a second year now I still took part in 'Freshers Week' which has left bruised and battered. I caught freshers flu (not a myth) and was seriously ill for three day. I'm pretty sure drinking alcohol for seven days straight would make anyone sick but I soldiered through and managed to go most nights.
Another big factor to my lack of posting has to be my job. I've been given a lot more hours at work and it's taken me a while to be able to balance everything out. I've got more responsibilities and duties to carry out but I do love a challenge.
The last thing I wanted to touch on briefly is around the topic of mental health. I find it really awkward to talk about my own mental to health people but I'm just gonna go for it. For the first few weeks of moving back to university I was on my own. My other housemates didn't move in till a lot later than me. When I planned to move back I didn't even think that I wouldn't be okay living on my own, I was excited. I was finally having that independence that I wanted. But once I got to my new place I soon realised that I wasn't as confident about living on my own as I made myself believe. I started panicking and becoming fearful of absoloutly everything. When I become scared I can't face the thing that scares me. For instance I became scared of the kitchen in my house (i know it sounds nuts) so I just stopped going in there. I just ate in my room for like four days straight and got crappy take always. Why was I scared of my kitchen? I don't know but it's all I could think about. Luckily I have some pretty awesome friends that helped me through that weird state. I'm feeling a lot better now but I'm so scared that I'll never be able to live on my own. Why can't my brain just be normal????
So yeah that's about it really. I am determined to post at least twice a week on here but if it doesn't happen it doesn't happen. Hope everyone is well and having a good day.
I'll write soon xox